Sunday 27 December 2009

Some thoughts as we approach the end of the year

Hey, just a few days till the end of the year.
Some news in the last few days...
Things at work were hectic: I asked for clarity regarding if a move to the retail job was possible until the holidays and none were coming. And in the last day, for a debrief session, the girl I was replacing was supposed to come.
Had a quick chat (by accident, for 2 or 3 minutes...) with the retail mkt director, he had a chat with my other boss, they are willing (and he wants to) to make it happen but don't have a solution yet. So I need to start handing things over.
That really pissed me of. I got totally annoyed, angry, furious. I poured so much of myself into that job, was so passionate about it, could see future possibilities, but it was not happening for me. Funny the following day one of the secretaries (who has known me for years) picked up that I looked unhappy again... she said I had looked happy again, and now unhappy... How canny.

The day the girl was over for the debrief was quite hard to deal with. I moved my stuff back to my old place. The debriefs were hard, I have my strong oppinion but it's gonna be her job and her calls.

One thing I know is that I don't want to move to my old job. I will look for a good move out.

Towards the end of the 23rd I started feeling hot. Getting home, after football, I was feeling quite bad actually. Got into bed, had fever. That night and the following day were very sickly... High temperatures. In bed. Sleeping. 24th was mostly spent in bed. Missed family lunch on the 25th.

I guess I've been working for 1 year non stop and need a break. And the stress really built up in these last days at work. And my body reacted, making me stop.

I like the way I am. I am surprisingly strong and resilient. But I need to let go, work should not get to me the way it does. I will learn to do it. Never again will Christmas be spoiled by work.

On the girlfriend front... no real support where expected.