Thursday 30 July 2009

Lost

I feel lost.
Don't have direction.
Feel lonely. Don't want to be lonely in this stage in life. In the past sometimes I made that choice. I don't want it now.

That part of my life (partner) is key at this stage. It is what fills my mind. With hindsight, probably it has been on my mind for quite a while now, since 06?
But only now I think I start to understand how important it is.

And it seems so important that it influences other areas. Can't find motivation and objectives at work. As the personal side needs work, it shouts for attention, it drains energy, it requires me. And nothing else can get attention if that part is not solved.

Sad.
Also, not sure how to solve it. How do you know who is right for you?
How can you tell if someone is 'the one' for you?

Yes, with some partner there might be huge passion. But does that last? Is that enough?
Sure, there is also great values and personality, which breeds great respect. But does it mean more than a great friendship? Don't we also need more there?

A mix of both is ideal. But I can't seem to find it. Am I really looking? Am I overlooking something? Do I need to look more, or do I already have exactly what I want and need?