Perspective again

Hey!
Been out for a few days with some stomach problems. Really annoying as they kept me in bed for the entire weekend and made me miss a good friends wedding and a very big match, the final of the cup.
Being in bed the pain was annoying, I couldn't sit up or do anything just lie down and also had trouble falling asleep. There was also quite a bit of fever!
In all this, something was really strange. I was thinking that this could be something serious and bad... and at some stage I almost wished that it was so that I could stop my job and really think about my priorities and allign my life with them. It was definitely very clear that I wanted to stop what I am doing and do something else.
It's key to decide what I want to do (and agree with it deep down) and then go on and do it.
I realised that I was happy in my times abroad. Even though they were difficult, I was driven by an inner sense and strength? I wanted to do it and I was living life?
I felt good, I felt I was experiencing things, I was becoming more experienced and at the same time I became much more myself: as I saw different ways of working and above all different attitudes to life, I was much more able to see what I was doing, what was due to my personality and what was due to social conditioning.

Put things in perspective

Have a board meeting today. I should have prepared something for it which I did not do... because the deadline given to me was mental and simply because I really don't fancy the work.
I could have worked yesterday until late night, but really did not feel like it. It is a change: I am more important than work. So I chose to go to bed and get some sleep!
I went to the doctor who said I was tired and needed a break... so I tried to get it.

Let's see how I will cope with the board.
I'll probably be honest and say I simply did not have time to do this.
And get a bollocking.
But there is more to life and I don't need this hassle. Put things in perspective.
AS I have just heard yesterday... a high school friend of mine commited suicide a few days ago... that really puts things in perspective!

A couple of other good friends are going in opposite directions: one is getting married, another one is getting a divorce. Funny that so early on my friends are already getting divorced.